just exercised

I have these sessions I do exercise. I didn't do one for a while, now I went through a full one. and perhaps I didn't do this for long I feel all the benefits of exercising. I feel fluids flowing in my body like they never do. I feel healthy and strong.

I love this feeling

did it! managed not to look at work material the whole WE

and that's no small thing. given the fact that I have become addicted to my inbox. I have began admiring all the employees from the home office (not to mention romantic fantasies), have began to feel awe to the organization. and you not what... it made really realize how much of time, energy have been allocated to this place.

Hello... duh... I'm such a junior and small worker... It's not like I'm the VP their and neither is my salary.

tiding up my room

I put in of all weekend.

I can't explain why this task is so appaling to me.

Maybe it's to many details, to many things I do not have a solution for.

I'll put on some music and try to make the most out of it. I'll try to think about the satisfaction later.

But one really good thing. I didn't look at my work inbox or at the work site for the entire weekend!

Public Diary...

Public Diary...

I want a vacation

I want a one-day vacation because I feel so fat. and I also have a wedding this evening and I would like a vacation from that to...


what i mean by vacation is a time when no one tells me wshat to do. mom, boss or society. it can be anywhere as long as i am a lone.

time to take care of myself

this is mostly a diary post- so don't read if it will seem boring. just trying to get myself comitted. I'm just trying to get myeslf to do things.

I once had a trick. I think it worked relatively very well for a while.

I'll try it again now.

we need to talk about your working habits

that is what my boss told me today.

doesn't that sound frightning. I get chills from hearing that.

awake in the middle of the night

Hi,

I'm thinking of the newletter I need to publish. Currently among the most autonomous, challenging and most interesting thing I do in my job.

I'm thinking about some deadlines I need to set to myself and other this week.

better go get some sleep. long day ahead of me (work and a marriage of a friend)

about falling in love with people you never met

There are at least 2 guys like that in my work.

It's interesting you work with people and you talk about very specific things. you have neve meet these people, but the work unites you - the specific technical problems you know, the secrets you hide from the customers, the terms.

You never met them, you only talked with them over the phone, and you write them e-mails.

and that leaves lots of place to imagining I guess.

They joke with you (are they flirting?)

Is it there english. The fact that they can word your thoughts better then you can.

Book

I read a book and it so much balanced me. It so much balanced my life. I looked into the work material less. I had something else to do. I guess I need to do that reguarly. And start working on my next job, I'm going to teach something in university. And it is something that is not easy for me.

Oh, how I need to allocate my resources in a better way.

last look into my inbox at work tonight.

I sent stuff to people but haven't recieved replies.

Time to do other things, I can't do anything about work right now anyway. I have to fill my head with other things.

I need to get a life

OK it's weekend- so why am I looking obssesively into my inbox. looking for files, waiting for communication. I'm a real sucker. Or it's as if I am a real sucker I don't know.

But whats certain, this isn't healthy, it isn't healthy having all your life in just one aspect. Thats like putting all the eggs in one place.

So I decided to limit it. limit it, if I mess check my email. all hit 100 times and not 500


:)

acting impulsively

That's one really big fault in me. I would skip other arranging my room and coming my hair and brushing my teeth and so on,

just to do the thing I finally wanted to do- check email for example.

So, I noticed, It would also make me build a line incorrectly.

my email box at work

I look into material of work at home. Is that normal? I like say to myself- OK to do that but only for the next 15-20 min. and they carried away into it.

I have fell in love with the head office. I like hate the company in which I work. when I enter the room and see so many selling aids it makes me want to puke.

I feel that the company is boring and dull. I edit a magazine and it somehow really bores me. filled with lies and fancy words.

But the people seem great to me. The graphic designers, and all the other people, lots of people whom I have never met in person.

But just stories and pictures. I guess it was just sort of designed for me, because when I was a kid, I used to like pen palling.

It's like a bond. a place for the imagination.

and then there are guys that I have crushes on. and so on. and so on.