Boring posts

All I am doing is bitching about how much work I have and how I don't feel like doing it I need to gobble down a super difficult paper for a professor who means the world to me.

By Thursday it will be over. Again, I have to tell myself to hang in there.

despite the criticism I have to finish this project. My teacher will have comments regardless of how hard I try, i'm just trying to reduce them.

Guess this is a sign that I chose a course that can teach me something.

I have a more important project which needs my attention.

I'll start seeing how much progress I do.

criticism

When someone recieves criticism he or she should thank the criticizer. He is revealing to that person that there is a blind spot.

When I receive critisim it drives me nuts. I get furious and start thinking negative things automaticlly about the criticizer. Then I drop to a state of depression and think that I am worthless, that I cant do anything.

When you're in university, you should crticize and recieve criticizm that is how you will ever improve.

I guess for this reason I like so much technical and autoamatic things, rotuine things like answering customers email's. They are less hard then writing a sceintic argments, or presenting material in front of an intelligent audience that can tell when you are faking, when you are shallow .

We're writing a questioneire and recieve tasks to write each week. I guess that when I am asked to do something of this sort (i.e- write something that need to be good!)

I remember last year. Last year I was a TA and wrote lesson plans. I sat by myself in front of a word file writing, deleting, sending, recieve a document back with so many changes and remarks. It sounds benin when I write it but it was pretty horrible for me.

It's not the same in this task we are all peers.

Still, I'd say my problem is my emotions interefere in my work.

Or maybe I choose too dificult task that frustrate me. I don't know.

I really don't.

So I try to tell myself, that when it is hard, that is the sign that you are improving like when you strech your muschle and it hurts that is the sign that you are growing flexible.

It's hard to be me...

But that's life, take what you have and make the most out of it.

till now did the critical reading. It was critism about me.... not easy but justified. It seems like I wont be able to read Goffman, server of library is down.

Have to do a different task for school which I really don't feel like doing.... I sort of just want to get rid of it, but i've learned that when you work that way, it shows...

When you do a tast try to put the most into it, even if it is not so important porportionally. Shit, shit I forgot to buy paper, will have to work online.

school sucks, my social life sucks, what can I do?

"the just be strong" thing seems to alwasy be true.

goofed of

till now really goffed of,,, i mean really really.

plan for today,

read goffman - fun and games

finish task for critical reading

finish -skarim

if there is time leftt - start presenestation

please call me... please please please...

I feel so unwanted, so uneeded .... so alone. I'm waiting patiently.

A little better. I slept.

i'm lonely. I don't know if I will be able to find friends anymore. I'm 28. Sometimes I look at other girls I wish were my friends, I try not to be too pushy.

I have a bad job to.