falling in love throgh email

I fell in love with a guy at work who I never saw and I probably never will. He is a young married man a father of very young children. and I only saw pictures of him. He's funny and smart and very eloquant in his speach. Because English is not my mother tongue, then when I speak with him I feel like he can word me. His status is also much higher then mine.

I work in a company with branches all over the world.

I want to have interaction with this guy more then for just work purposes. and when I need him for work, I cannot distiniguish if it is really for work.

I get jealous of my manager when she talks to him, when he sends her emails - which anyone can realize is plain stupid. The most stupid kind of possesivness that I can think of.

I think that what really hurts me is that I am not the only one who is charmed by this guy.

That other people also find him funny and cool and smart and charming. They talk about him with a smile. I guess apart of all this is my own self confidence problems.

knowing that there is someone smarter, funnier, happier, sweeter then I am. And there are always people like that. There will always be people that will be more happy and more funny and better wrapped than you.

and you will always be somewhat more heavy and frowny then someone else. Thats the way it is.

I'm glad that I will never meet him. I think it would have been really akward.

I'm leaving this job in a few months for school.


Thats all I wanted to say.

I feel much better already