Soon i'm going to be on vacation

and i think it's going to be a little difficult for me. Ever since I started this job 10 months ago I wasn't on a real vacation. I was on some non-paid vacations and I maybe some one-dayers in which I did something (i'll also some have some work this time...but not related to this workplace... I know this sounds complicated)

But it's going to be oh so healthy, I worked so much, I woreked over hours sometimes just to get some things fullfiled. I did a lot. and also on vacations and weekends I found it difficult not to read emails from work

I hope i'll find what to do, and i hope I wont be tempted to look at my inbox at from work at all.

incredible feeling

I was offered to stay in my job- for a position that seems exiting - i am thrilled and grateful

procrastinating again

this is just the time to get some work down. I can't blame my mood. i'm moody a lot:) there wouldn't be a more classical time then now to get some work done.

There were some things that upset me, again- inwards mostly with myself. But hey- lifes ain't perfect, I'm doing what i can.

improving

My mom puts me down (i'm leaving home soon) I want to tell her- mom I know I have a lot to work on, i know i can be oblivious and careless, but rather then scolding me you should look at my small efforts and improvments. that's how i try to look at myself.

This knowledge protects me from her attacks. The knowledge that I am working on it, even though the steps maybe too small and it's hard to notice.

Procrastination

That is the story of my life. I'm reading this book and I see how serious and how many results are from this (hair cut, diet) it's an extremly interesting book. I'm going to have to read it a few times.

wording it out

Whenever you are unhappy about anything in your life- word it out, word it out.

When you are dissapointed or angry, if you are considering a few options.

If you are unhappy with a situation.

If you feel week

If you fall

If you become moody- just word it out - word it out.

If you cannot be close to someone you wish you could be- write it out- you will find comfort in the writing.

If you feel inferior and small- just word it out - word it out. It will help you continue in the flow of life.

Word it out - it will give you stenght, it will organize concepts, arrange the wandering thoughts in your mind.

It will enable you an improved dialog with yourself.

It will be easier for you to communicate while you communicate with yourself.


Word it out - it is a good solution. and it's also cheap - no 100$ shrink.

just word it out-word it out

As for my previous post

here are 2 things I want to do today.

1. I want to write down everything I eat. I want to diet-I think I've had enough of my untrimmed self.

2. As my mother recommends I want to do 20 seconds tiding. Anything that requires just 20 seconds not a full project.

writing it out

Thats one of things i've heard. Writing it our puts things in perspective, makes you think about things in a different way, makes your confused thoughts concrete, connects you to the ground, makes you commited.

No working on Saturdays

Just don't do it, I tell myself. and that includes email reading. I'm always curious if people will write to me. If they will respond to me, but still that's work.

The only exception is if I want to look int the manual of the program, I don't know why but that is somehow fun,

If I randomly think about things I need to do or how to do things better that's ok. but no going to the site, no reading work material.

Didn't write for a while

Writing here is very similar to writing in a diary I find. (no ones reading he.. he.. he..). I think I want to start dieting again. I think I'm up to it.

Each time I do things that I'm supposed to do (exercise, arrange my clothing in my closet, NOT looking in my inbox in the weeked) I feel really really good. For so many other people this is so obvious, so that's good.

I'll go fold my clothing right now then I'll exercise.