I wanted to feel sorrow today

I wanted to real feel the bottom of sadness. I was walking to my home and I wanted to feel sadness pure and simple. with no prorction and no chearing up.

I wanted to produce tears, I wanted to feel sad and sorrow. I wanted no interruptions.

I wanted something clear, not something mixed, I wanted to see everything in the same light.

I didn't want to fight, I didn't want aggression or anger or revenge.